"I've never seen a wild thing feel sorry for itself."
Maybe it's not about the wilderness
But being tamed by someone else
I've missed sunsets my whole life
To be paid in swallowed stones that try to convince me I've been full this entire time
Never again will that be me
I'll let my tender thoughts grow free
Even if the prunings would be the death of me
If the sky doesn't crack open wide like the wound in Christ's side
I won't give up the ghost but grip it's hand tight
Exhale my mistakes make my way into the bright
Because it was a
Slow march to suicide
Coffins like church spires
In my mind
Year '11 on my hands and knees my body wracked like seizures
Meeting the Spirit in the back of my eyes
I wish every song wasn't my attempt for sympathy through others grief
Pile stones on me higher than my chest cavity
Weigh me in millstones so I can taste the salt between my teeth
(4 beats)
Find me East of Eden
Fig leaves over my eyes
Two tokens for my troubles
God sees me naked in lies
If I'm allowed in heaven
Pray my friends are by my side
Promised hinting of relief
Questions still squeeze
The life out of my lungs before I speak
I’ll burn myself in effigy
Light matches in my teeth
Greek Fire
Ceaseless burning
No cold could bring relief
If bodies are like signal flares
I hope it be
Enough to bring
You back to me
Die wild
Let me stand in the wilderness
Wildfire footprints all around
Die wild
I'll gladly spill the contents of my throat upon the scarlet ground
Die wild
It's not the contents of my pockets those things will never bring me peace
Die wild
The craftings of the tongue you thought would never cease
Find me East of Eden
Fig leaves over my eyes
Two tokens for my troubles
God sees me naked in lies
If I'm allowed in heaven
Pray my friends are by my side
credits
from Illogical Rest,
released April 28, 2016
Writing credit to DH Lawrence from the poem "Self Pity".
Writing credit to Mike Sugars of Church Tongue from the song "Die Wild".
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