Just a Midwest boy with shin splints mistook for growing pains
On the side just running wind sprints thinking I’m in a race
But the pace was set by shameful words
Clattering hooves of a demonic dirge
Heavy chains rattle from a wordless throat
Self-induced headaches from walls and knuckles
I prayed as a child to bring heaven to earth
As an adult I hoped to leave this world first
Chariot of fire ascension
Collapsed lung dissension
If it ended in new body redemption
Then they were synonyms in my brain
But the past dictates the present like a wound dictates the sting
Not a lesson I’d thought I swallow at the age of 23
It sat lead heavy at the bottom, starving man eating stones
found out you can look through windows if you’ve shut door
Mercy greater than judgement
Knowledge over hate
Love before emotion
Sincerity covers all mistakes
They say some will die a thousand times but I'm fine with passing twice
No more going out on broken limbs
I'm not just living now but I'm alive
When I was younger the thought of dying brought a smile of relief to my lips
Now a days it fills my soul with unease cus of life goals I'd have to miss
Nights occupied in discussion with my wife of what we'll name our kids
I want my skin to remember every scraped knee I have to kiss
Every report card and every lie my kids confess
Learning again how to be a conversationalist
When my child speaks the language of the Heavenlies
A reflection of a glass sea
In front of me reflected in whites of their eyes
Because the truth belongs to God
The yearnings of my heart are mine
I pray to the Father that even once in awhile the sun and moon align
But I'll let myself be eclipsed
I'm a tattered sail blown by the winds
Just a deceitful heart clinging to a promise given to it
So if I lay down tomorrow then I will gladly rest
My life's been a run on sentence in need of a period.
Mercy greater than judgement.
Knowledge over hate.
Love before emotion.
Sincerity covers all mistakes.
credits
from Illogical Rest,
released April 28, 2016
Studio drums are thanks to David Puckett of For Today.
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